Thursday, July 29, 2010

Message for me...

It's been a while since I've posted. I'm not one to ramble about what I did or ate today. It has to come to me, that "thing" that I want to share, to say. As I was scrolling through my FB page, it was like someone said "pssst". The was for me, not about me at all, but for me. The phenomenal Raven posted "I'm running late but I'm on my way." And at that I instant, I said, "me too". Just to myself, I said it. That's exactly how I feel. This, of course, is in regards to my writing. I am in the middle of moving just about cross country and there's a LOT to do. I have had very little time to write. Aside from moving prep, my mind has been on trivial things, that really should not consume so much mental and emotional energy. Today, I decided to release it all. I cannot carry the weight of it, like hooks pierced through the flesh of my back, dragging heavy chains, and I am trying to move forward. Today the chains are gone, the flesh is healing, and the mind is freeing. I probably won't get to do very much writing until I actually arrive at my new home, so it may be later than sooner, but I AM on my way, and I WILL get there. My destination awaits!
{P.S. ~I can't figure out how to take off that second picture! LOL Ooopsie!}

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Music as Inspiration

I'm not talking about Inspirational/Religious music, although that can certainly provide a source of inspiration... My horoscope told me to find my creative inspiration in music today. So I had my coffee and plugged my earphones in and started listening. I have listened to many songs, many genres. What usually happens to me when I listen to music for inspiration, did happen once again, and that's this. I listen. The songs vary greatly. But what happens is that a recurring theme resounds to me. There is a message that is being conveyed to me and it's said to me in different ways each time, fragments of words that all belong to the same thread of thought, message, that is for ME today. I've been in a funk once again, just regular things in life that irritate me more than usual lately. I crave order and structure so when I don't have that, I get a little cranky. I'm smack dab in the middle of getting ready to move half-way across the country and it's a bit stressful, to say the least. (although in all honesty, I am SO excited about it and ready to start the new adventure) The message I keep getting is simple. Shut up, stop complaining, you have the power to change, to make different the things that displease you, you have the power to move mountains if you really wanted to, you are a winner, you've done this long enough to know how to brush it off of your shoulders and rise above. My confidence slightly gaining, I keep listening. I expected "inspiration" to be tied to my writing. But what I needed was a swift kick in the a$$ telling me to get over it and get above it. So that is exactly what I am going to do. YES, I have to convince myself, force myself, but I will. How does that saying go? "Fake it 'til you make it" Something like that, I am not at ALL about being fake, but I guess if I smile enough, strut enough, I'll remind myself there is too much to feel GOOD about and all that is weighing me down is incidental and unimportant. Off to strut!

~La Poetic Seamstress~